countless of precious memories were made,
experienced a lot of those that I couldn't experience living in my home country,
I smiled a lot but at the same time, I cried a lot.
There were times when I really just want escape from reality and go home, but strangely, being at the airport now, I am starting to feel sad for going home, there are obviously more reasons to go home but there is a strong urge in me wanting to stay. At some point, I felt regret for coming here but hey, made through sixteen weeks strongly. Too many things happened in this period, being alone in a foreign country is not as easy, but it had been great to have friends around to support me and honestly, it had been a really great month with you.
Went on trips, Busan and Kimhae, it was really fun to travel around, going on wrong buses and we just laughed our ass off without complaining. Being two dumb and dumber who has really bad sense of direction, we can't help but to get on and off the buses every single trip. It has been a really great semester with my one and only partner, sounds so sad but two of us basically hangs out together all the time. I can't imagine how lonely my first semester would be without your accompany.
17 credits are not that much but suffered a lot because almost 60% of them are a new subject to me.
Honestly, it was really hard to me.
Most of them have basics knowledge in AIP but for me it was really starting from zero. No idea how to print a sentence out, no idea how to do maths with python, it was difficult from the first class until the very last class. Reading the materials given by professors and watching the videos (and fell asleep half way ended up have to replay several times) makes me feel like I do understand them but I just can't solve the quizzes every time. Calculus was total nightmare to me, maths was all about doing calculations to me but suddenly it becomes making explanations and reasonings. Whenever I do revision, it feels like I do understand the definitions and applications but every time a new questions came, I wasn't able to make connections. Chemistry was considered the subject that stressed me out the less, remember when I used to hate chemistry so much? It became my favorite from all of the subjects I did in this semester. Physics was so-so, being able to solve most questions from homework and group problem solving sessions but unable to solve quizzes and exams that actually matters (: sometimes, I just want to shoot myself in the head. Chemistry lab session was fun with my two korean group mates, the senior was so sweet she even treated me ice cream in a hot hot day! Physics lab session was (urm.... bad) in the sense of having a group mate that gives me headache but thankfully my buddy made it up! Also, the teaching assistant who are really friendly! Humanities class which I almost gave up on the first class because I didn't expect its about korean history and literatures, thought its going to be boring but hey, it turns out pretty enjoyable and learnt a lot about korea. Had a chance to talk about the difference between malaysia and korea as our final project was absolutely interesting. Honestly, this was the only class where I was able to make friends from other majors. Especially meeting the senior who are so helpful and friendly, I am sincerely thankful about it. 선배님에게 진짜 감사한말을 알려주고 싶다 ㅠㅠ 카톡으로 알려줬는데 뭔가 부족한 것 같기도 하고~ ㅠㅠ
About him,
There was 2 draft posts that were not completed but it make no sense to publish now since its over. I was naive, I trusted you too easily, I made the decision too quickly.
我曾很天真的以为你的一字一句都是真心诚意，也许吧，也许一开始有那么一瞬间是真的，可是我不知从何时开始觉得你看我的眼神慢慢变了。当时我觉得是自己想太多，是自己太敏感都说服自己没事 是自己太敏感了。可是现在回想起来，女人的直觉真的还蛮准确的。你一开始很贴心，你一开始很懂的关心，每次早上起床看到你的早安信息是最开心的事情，比你迟睡你总会让我睡的时候告诉你一声。可是渐渐的，你慢慢变得不会一起床就给我一个早安，有时我甚至觉得也许你还没起床，可是最后发现你起来了却一个早安都没有其实心里真的是痛的。也许有些人会觉得一个早安，没什么。可是你知道吗，这些变化真的令我很害怕。我只知道如果你真的喜欢一个人每天早上醒来最先想起的一定会是他。渐渐的你信息回复得慢，好，我不抱怨。我选择包容。我选择理解你。你开始还会发给我爱心，最后你什么都不发了，即使我发了，你也好像盲了看不见一样。最后，因为一个考试就这样拆散了我们。我不知道我该怪考试还是怪你，还是怪自己的天真。因为考试，我们没见面了三个星期。好不容易捱过了考试，我们约了三次，你爽约了三次。隔两天，你提出分手。可是你知道吗，你的每一次爽约，我都哭了。第三次的时候，我真的察觉到不对劲，我哭了好多次，我让自己不哭，可是我做不到。你说你不舒服需要去医院所以不能赴约，你知道我看到信息的时候担心真的多于愤怒。你需要去医院的原因明明可以让我大闹一场脾气可是我因为担心不闹，还一直问你有没有好点了 可不可以过去看你，而你，信息不看，电话不接，你就让我在这里瞎担心。最后，我哭了两天，整整两天，眼睛肿得恐怖。到最后看到你分手信息，我眼泪都流不出来了。
我曾以为你很贴心，可是到最后才发现你对我其实一点都不上心。
因为认识了一个朋友，我们还蛮好聊的。也真的因为他，让我发现你真的不太看重我。我发现你以前除了去运动，去学校，基本上都不会跟我说你去哪里。有时约你早上你说不得空有事情要忙，问你什么事，你也从来不交代都草草带过，我也真的拿出了我最大的包容觉得，好吧，个人空间还是要有的。可是你知道吗，就一个朋友，我不问他会自己来跟我分享今天都做了什么，明天有什么计划。我生病跟他说他每天最问病情一直让我去看医生，而你，我记得有一次跟你说不舒服你也就当天关心了一下过后就没了这回事，可是你生病的时候我真的每天都在担心。那时候你跟朋友去玩，我让你拍拍照给我看，而你没有。可是这朋友，发了好多照片给我，早餐 午餐 晚餐 住宿 甚至跟朋友的照片都发给我看。我就真的突然发现为什么一个朋友可以这样对我而你，身为男朋友却做不到。你也好像从来不接我的电话，一开始还跟我说你一定会接，可是你从来不接。明明跟你一起的时候你看到朋友的未接电话你也会打一通回去，可是你从来不回电给我。我们好像真的只通过一次电话，还是我问你可不可以通电话过后，而那通电话也不长。可是你懂吗，这朋友我们一通电话半个小时。他无聊没事就问我要不要通电话。我跟他聊的一通电话已经远远超过了跟你。
也不是想做比较只是好像真的到了最后，我才恍然大悟，好像我从来不在你心里一样。
曾经以为我们可以一起去赏第二个樱花，可是我们连一个春天都没熬过。
studying aboard for the very first semester taught me a lot, it definitely forced me to be more independent, being at home, putting the dirty clothes in the laundry basket and they'll magically be washed and folded neatly then being kept in my wardrobe. but leaving without family means I have to do it on my own, forcing myself to wake up early on saturday morning to do laundry then fold and hang them nicely back into the wardrobe. eating alone is no longer something I feel ashamed or stressed to do, I learnt to enjoy time alone and I realize I would rather do things alone than wasting time to wait. I really hate it when my schedule being delayed just because of the endless waiting and waiting so I chose to do a lot of things alone.
and,
I began to realize the beauty of being alone.
it makes me calm, and somehow,
makes my mind clear.
well of course,
I still enjoy spending time meeting people.
to summarize,
it had been a great four months,
and definitely, more precious memories shall be make.
17 credits are not that much but suffered a lot because almost 60% of them are a new subject to me.
Artificial Intelligence Programming I,
Calculus I,
Chemistry I,
Physics I,
Chemistry Laboratory I,
Physics Laboratory I,
Humanities Subject - Understanding Korea.
Honestly, it was really hard to me.
Most of them have basics knowledge in AIP but for me it was really starting from zero. No idea how to print a sentence out, no idea how to do maths with python, it was difficult from the first class until the very last class. Reading the materials given by professors and watching the videos (and fell asleep half way ended up have to replay several times) makes me feel like I do understand them but I just can't solve the quizzes every time. Calculus was total nightmare to me, maths was all about doing calculations to me but suddenly it becomes making explanations and reasonings. Whenever I do revision, it feels like I do understand the definitions and applications but every time a new questions came, I wasn't able to make connections. Chemistry was considered the subject that stressed me out the less, remember when I used to hate chemistry so much? It became my favorite from all of the subjects I did in this semester. Physics was so-so, being able to solve most questions from homework and group problem solving sessions but unable to solve quizzes and exams that actually matters (: sometimes, I just want to shoot myself in the head. Chemistry lab session was fun with my two korean group mates, the senior was so sweet she even treated me ice cream in a hot hot day! Physics lab session was (urm.... bad) in the sense of having a group mate that gives me headache but thankfully my buddy made it up! Also, the teaching assistant who are really friendly! Humanities class which I almost gave up on the first class because I didn't expect its about korean history and literatures, thought its going to be boring but hey, it turns out pretty enjoyable and learnt a lot about korea. Had a chance to talk about the difference between malaysia and korea as our final project was absolutely interesting. Honestly, this was the only class where I was able to make friends from other majors. Especially meeting the senior who are so helpful and friendly, I am sincerely thankful about it. 선배님에게 진짜 감사한말을 알려주고 싶다 ㅠㅠ 카톡으로 알려줬는데 뭔가 부족한 것 같기도 하고~ ㅠㅠ
About him,
There was 2 draft posts that were not completed but it make no sense to publish now since its over. I was naive, I trusted you too easily, I made the decision too quickly.
我曾很天真的以为你的一字一句都是真心诚意，也许吧，也许一开始有那么一瞬间是真的，可是我不知从何时开始觉得你看我的眼神慢慢变了。当时我觉得是自己想太多，是自己太敏感都说服自己没事 是自己太敏感了。可是现在回想起来，女人的直觉真的还蛮准确的。你一开始很贴心，你一开始很懂的关心，每次早上起床看到你的早安信息是最开心的事情，比你迟睡你总会让我睡的时候告诉你一声。可是渐渐的，你慢慢变得不会一起床就给我一个早安，有时我甚至觉得也许你还没起床，可是最后发现你起来了却一个早安都没有其实心里真的是痛的。也许有些人会觉得一个早安，没什么。可是你知道吗，这些变化真的令我很害怕。我只知道如果你真的喜欢一个人每天早上醒来最先想起的一定会是他。渐渐的你信息回复得慢，好，我不抱怨。我选择包容。我选择理解你。你开始还会发给我爱心，最后你什么都不发了，即使我发了，你也好像盲了看不见一样。最后，因为一个考试就这样拆散了我们。我不知道我该怪考试还是怪你，还是怪自己的天真。因为考试，我们没见面了三个星期。好不容易捱过了考试，我们约了三次，你爽约了三次。隔两天，你提出分手。可是你知道吗，你的每一次爽约，我都哭了。第三次的时候，我真的察觉到不对劲，我哭了好多次，我让自己不哭，可是我做不到。你说你不舒服需要去医院所以不能赴约，你知道我看到信息的时候担心真的多于愤怒。你需要去医院的原因明明可以让我大闹一场脾气可是我因为担心不闹，还一直问你有没有好点了 可不可以过去看你，而你，信息不看，电话不接，你就让我在这里瞎担心。最后，我哭了两天，整整两天，眼睛肿得恐怖。到最后看到你分手信息，我眼泪都流不出来了。
我曾以为你很贴心，可是到最后才发现你对我其实一点都不上心。
因为认识了一个朋友，我们还蛮好聊的。也真的因为他，让我发现你真的不太看重我。我发现你以前除了去运动，去学校，基本上都不会跟我说你去哪里。有时约你早上你说不得空有事情要忙，问你什么事，你也从来不交代都草草带过，我也真的拿出了我最大的包容觉得，好吧，个人空间还是要有的。可是你知道吗，就一个朋友，我不问他会自己来跟我分享今天都做了什么，明天有什么计划。我生病跟他说他每天最问病情一直让我去看医生，而你，我记得有一次跟你说不舒服你也就当天关心了一下过后就没了这回事，可是你生病的时候我真的每天都在担心。那时候你跟朋友去玩，我让你拍拍照给我看，而你没有。可是这朋友，发了好多照片给我，早餐 午餐 晚餐 住宿 甚至跟朋友的照片都发给我看。我就真的突然发现为什么一个朋友可以这样对我而你，身为男朋友却做不到。你也好像从来不接我的电话，一开始还跟我说你一定会接，可是你从来不接。明明跟你一起的时候你看到朋友的未接电话你也会打一通回去，可是你从来不回电给我。我们好像真的只通过一次电话，还是我问你可不可以通电话过后，而那通电话也不长。可是你懂吗，这朋友我们一通电话半个小时。他无聊没事就问我要不要通电话。我跟他聊的一通电话已经远远超过了跟你。
也不是想做比较只是好像真的到了最后，我才恍然大悟，好像我从来不在你心里一样。
曾经以为我们可以一起去赏第二个樱花，可是我们连一个春天都没熬过。
studying aboard for the very first semester taught me a lot, it definitely forced me to be more independent, being at home, putting the dirty clothes in the laundry basket and they'll magically be washed and folded neatly then being kept in my wardrobe. but leaving without family means I have to do it on my own, forcing myself to wake up early on saturday morning to do laundry then fold and hang them nicely back into the wardrobe. eating alone is no longer something I feel ashamed or stressed to do, I learnt to enjoy time alone and I realize I would rather do things alone than wasting time to wait. I really hate it when my schedule being delayed just because of the endless waiting and waiting so I chose to do a lot of things alone.
and,
I began to realize the beauty of being alone.
it makes me calm, and somehow,
makes my mind clear.
well of course,
I still enjoy spending time meeting people.
to summarize,
it had been a great four months,
and definitely, more precious memories shall be make.
#started this post in airport, but only ended it now.
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